Your Will Be Done – letting go of my will

 

Morning came despite the night in her heart. All she heard was her heart beating. Everything seemed in slow motion to her. "What is happening?" "My life!" She fell to the floor sobbing with no more words to say. No more words to pray. In the sounds of her cry she heard "Our Father which art in heaven, hollowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done..." "No!," she interrupted. She couldn't believe this was His will. This was not how she dreamed her life would be like. "His will be done?" "Wait!"

Silence over took the morning air. She raised her head to the heavens. In visioning God on a throne with radiant light blinding her eyes and piercing through her heart, she realized her sin of unbelief.  "Father forgive me for not believing your will is best for my life." Her body seemed lighter, as though the Father from heaven, Himself, came down and swooped her up. She stood up and walked over to her bible. She opened it to Matthew 9:20-22,

 

"Just then, a woman who had suffered from bleeding for 12 years approached from behind and touched the tassel on His robe, for she said to herself, “If I can just touch His robe, I’ll be made well!” But Jesus turned and saw her.“Have courage, daughter,” He said. “Your faith has made you well.” And the woman was made well from that moment (HCSB)." 

 

She felt God's arms around her. She was His daughter and He wanted to heal her heart. "But," she thought, "the woman in the bible was healed because of her faith!" Immediately She knew that her lack of belief in the goodness of God's will, proved her faith was weak. "How can He heal me?" She began to read farther down the page to Matthew 9:28-30,

 

"When He entered the house, the blind men approached Him, and Jesus said to them, “Do you believe that I can do this?” “Yes, Lord,” they answered Him. Then He touched their eyes, saying, “Let it be done for you according to your faith!” And their eyes were opened... (HCSB)"

 

She knew then what she needed to do... "Yes, Lord, I believe!" All she needed was a little faith to believe that God could heal her broken heart. That she can trust Him with her life, no matter what may come. His will be done!

 

Have you ever felt your life was going down a different path than you had planned? That Your dreams where being crushed? That all the heartache and pain would never go away?

Do you believe that God's will is best? That He can heal you if you believe?

 

Jesus prayed just before He knew it was almost the time for Him to die on the cross. He prayed three times for God to take this terrible fate from Him. But, God's will was best for His son to die for the whole world, even though it was painful. Take a look at how Jesus prayed to the Father,

 

 "Going a little farther, He fell facedown and prayed, “My Father! If it is possible, let this cup pass from Me. Yet not as I will, but as You will.”

Matthew 26:39 (HCSB)

 

"Yet not as I will, but as You will!" Are you able to pray this and really mean it?

This is hard because it means your life is not in your control. You have to be able to let go and give it to the hands of the Creator. The one who holds you in your distress and keeps you safe, but may allow you to go through trials for the glory of God. He is the one who gives you all that you need to face these trials in life? Let Him heal the dark places of your heart. Don't be afraid, have courage daughter of the King and have faith. All it takes is a little faith to believe.

 

 "Yes, Lord, I believe! I let go of my will to you. Your will be done!"



 © Carol Outhous Jones 2014